The last couple of weeks in my office have been spent walking over and around piles. Occasionally I would even stop to sort one of them. I’m finally seeing the finish line and have a large toss/shred/recycle pile and an even bigger donate pile to show for my efforts. It was one of those go through every piece of paper clean outs. Man, I needed that. Now, to get into every other closet and room in the house. Actually, the rooms and closets aren’t too bad, it’s the basement and attic that I’m having some pre-game panic over. For example, I have been carefully storing a beautiful butter dish from the 1700’s for years, it smells weird so it will never be used for its intended purpose, but I’m not really an “on display” kind of person so what do I do with it? Multiply that times who knows how many (unique! vintage! antique-y!) things and we’ve got a lot of sorting to do. The problem is, I’ve become mostly a donate and move on kind of person. Adam has a better appreciation for any money we may have invested in said objects. But seeing as goods hold so little value these days, tag sales are hardly worth the effort of producing them. So we differ a little on the best process for downsizing, for removing excess from our life. Nonetheless, downsizing is indeed something I am currently tending to every single day. And with each item out of my life, the happier I am.
Why all the downsizing? I don’t know exactly. 2016 feels like a year of transition in many ways, though I do not know what most of those transitions are going to look like, nor do I feel the need to overly plan and control their happening (highly unusual for me). I just feel like some preparation is called for here so when the time comes, I’ll be ready and can embrace what life hands us with greater ease. There is also the added consideration that we are firmly planted in middle age at this point, and as we age it is nice to exist among fewer things. This is a tricky balance considering we use our home readily; it is a work station, a place of production, a retreat, a library, and so on. I am not, nor do I have a desire to be, a minimalist. I just need to feel like I have what we use, need, and love, and nothing more. Additionally, a middle aged person can’t help but think of the days in which we will no longer inhabitant this earthly world. What then? Who gets to deal with our stuff? We’d like to make things less of a burden for Emily. Hopefully we’re acting incredibly prematurely on all of this, but it’s nice to take care of these things while we still have a bit of youthful energy on our side. 
This week I finally got through all the piles, and while putting some finishing touches on my office, I pulled together a new altar of sorts for my yoga space (which is really just the center of the room). Speaking of, this room functions as my office, my craft room, my yoga space, and my parents room when they are here (which is on average about once a month or so). It needs to do a lot of things! I try to keep it as clear as possible while still feeling cozy. I don’t want to practice yoga, or have my parents resting, in an otherwise cluttered office and craft space. So I’m constantly paring down and cleaning out. Creating a new altar was the final piece. Nothing too ceremonious, a small gathering of objects to remind me of why I show up for this practice. Without a conscious plan to do so, I placed a photo of Adam and I, one of my favorites from a midwinter hike, taken years ago. I’ve had photos on the altar before – in fact, I think I’ve always had a photo of a person in my life placed here – but never the two of us. Now, with each visit to the mat I am reminded why I value my health so much. Why I’d like to improve it even more. It's not for me, it's for us. It is not about a dress size or challenging pose achieved, I just want more of us. We would all like more time, and it seems our greatest shot at acquiring more time (let's just pretend fate, destiny and divine plans are not a thing) is by continuously investing in our heath.
More of us is why I am willing to go without (do we really need electricity?) and alter our lifestyle in a variety of ways so that we may best enjoy this precious time together. We are happiest when our lives are pointed toward one another, not apart. We get one shot at this. I am motivated daily by the idea of a well-crafted life, which of course means different things to different people, but to me it mostly means a quiet existence on our terms, less beholden to those outside of our family and beyond our community. Not exactly the American dream. Then again, maybe it is.